Restarting WW

I began WW in January of 2008 at 220 lbs, with a goal of 155. Which would put me at a BMI of 25%. Just sitting on the fence of being healthy vs over wieght, but my Doc thought that was a good goal to start with.

October 2008:  I continued with the program until I reach 180 pounds, and then I just fizzled out. No interest, no energy. Working a lot of hours, and trying to take care of everyone but myself. I looked better but was still overweight and not really happy with how I looked, but didn't really care enough to continue to make the changes needed.

April 9, 2009: I got on the scale at the Doc's office, I was at 180.5 pounds, in 7 months, I had only gained 0.5 pounds. But I looked like I weighed alot more. I also felt older and dragged out. So I made a promise to myself, to dedicate at least an hour a day to myself. Though I have to work hard at learning to say "no", I am a much happier person.

May of 2010:  I met and surpassed my goal, reaching 145 pounds.   It felt good, getting on the plane to Germany to see Stephan, knowing the success i had achieved.

September 5, 2020:  

I have gained back 85 pounds since I made my goal weight of 155, almost 10 years ago.  

I didn't realize it, just kinda snuck up on me until I saw pictures of me sitting on the couch.

As I looked at the photo, I realized how much I had gained and it kinda smacked me in the face. 

Lots of things I want to do in the next year and i would love to be at least 50 plus pounds lighter. 

One of which is going to the beach next year. 

The Battle of the Bulge begins again. 

Weight Watchers has been the most successful program for me.  

Mostly because I can still eat what I want but just have to have it in the appropriate portion size. 

And I think that is the biggest issue for me.  portion control.  

I want what I want, when I want it.

I also enjoy fresh fruits and veggies.  

Just need to put that at the front of the fridge and not the back.   

Go back to not keeping sweets readily available.  

The first 3 weeks is usually the hardest for me.   

So we shall see where it leads.

Journey restarted

Starting again.  Time to reassess my health
Current:  225 pounds
Goal:  150 pounds

Monthly Goal:  215  pounds

Steps:
          1.   Rejoin WW
           2.  Reestablish a healthy lifestyle
                a.   Portion control
                b.   Healthier choices
            3.  Reestablish care with Doctors
            4.  Move more 

Staying Motivated to move forward

Don't Quit

When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down,
And you feel like the biggest failure in town.
When you want to give up just because you gave in,
And forget all about being healthy and thin,
So What!! You went over your POINTS a bit,
It's your next move that counts...so don't you quit!!
It's a moment of truth; it's an attitude change.
It's learning the skills to get back in your range.
It's telling yourself: You've done great up 'til now.
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow.
It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,
If you summon the will to get back in the race,
But often the strugglers, when losing their grip,
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.
And learn too late when the damage is done,
That the race wasn't over....they still could have won.
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,
But facing each challenge will help you to grow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint in a cloud of doubt.
When you're pushed to the brink, just refuse to submit.
If you bite it, you write it....
BUT DON'T YOU DARE QUIT!!!

30 days before Christmas

Author Unknown, but I think it is cute....

Twas the month before Christmas
and what lies ahead?
three weeks of parties,
the baking I dread

The cookies. The shortbread.
fondue with great dippings
the fruitcake is yucky
but nuts make great pickings

When children are nestled
all snug in their bed
the pantry starts calling
treats dance in my head

Pound cake seems light.
I'll check it, I mutter
300+ fat grams
in one pound of butter?

TV ads peddle
the grandest new toys
my daughter wants earings
new sleds for my boys

Away to the mall
I fly like a flash
through food courts enroute
to machines for more cash

The budget is tight now
I'll pass on my meeting
but how can I make it
all week without cheating?

The shopping and wrapping
I really don't mind
but that leaves less time
to plan and unwind

When what to my wondering
eyes should appear
my neighbors have strung out
their lights for the year

Two weeks till Christmas
my house is still plain
I wanted to journal
not trim in the rain

Each day I start with the
best of intentions
but fast food wins out
I've got water retention!

The parties are coming
at least two a week
buffets and hors deuvres
my weight loss looks bleak

One little cookie,
than two, three and four
now that I've blown it
I'll just eat some more

Those people who weigh me
are just but a dream
and my leader, her name
escapes me it seems

It's just not the time
to try this solution
I'll wait till the New Year
-- a fresh resolution

An order on-line
I sit down to send
when I find in my e-mail
a note from a friend

She's lost two more pounds
she's written to tell
she missed me at weigh in
and hopes that I'm well

She says that I've helped her
so often it seems
when she wasn't feeling
like she'd reach her dream

She knows I've been busy
but wanted to say
my health was more crucial
than this holiday

I sit and remember
how far I have come
thirty pounds, thunder thighs
flabby arms, half my bum!

With firm resolution
I journal my day
grab my keys, leave a note
and head on my way

I speak not a word
but go straight to the gym
I'll no longer skip it
nor eat on a whim

The air seems much clearer
my world is alright
I'll get through the season
I'll finish this fight

And I think to myself
as I go to bed sighing
I'll stop losing weight
the day I stop trying

In need of a boost today

I am needing a bit of a boost today. Am feeling very lacks-a-daisy-a-cle (spelling??).

I want to make the right choices but having a hard time finding the energy to even care about it.

 I am doing nothing but sitting in front of the computer  and munching. 

I know I should be packing some healthy snacks, but I look into the fridge, and all I see is "yuck, Mom, there is nothing any good to eat in here."

I am so in need of an attitude adjustment, have not been able to work out either. Mostly because all I want to do is be a vegetable, an not a healthy one either.

So, send up a prayer, and send me a swift kick.
Thanks for your support,
Judianne